little tj in my hood...

{someone changed the dashboard on my me..and i dont like it}

ok now that that's out...

this semester i have two different campus locations.

one is santa ana

the campus ive taken all of my classes at

and santiago

first class ive taken there was last night

Monday night at santa ana

i went to the bathroom on campus.

talk about little tijuana

it was disgusting.

toilet paper everywhere

and it reeked like someone had pee'd on the floor. seriously.

and they have no where to hang your bag,

try trying to squat, hold your bag, and book all at the same time....

its hard!

then last night..

it was like a resort.

no toilet paper on the floor, it didnt smell like urine

and, just wait!

they had a shelf in the stall for your books

and a purse hook!

i thanked jesus almighty and pee'd in comfort!

plus the fella's there arent bad looking, guys wore plaid there.

and the girls were nice. at the other place, i look at a girl and they look like they wanna kick my arse.

and i didnt hear anyone yell "eeey esssay" whatever that means.

 <
vrs.

this wins.

wishlist tuesday

one class down, got it!

two more to go.

every year for the first 2 weeks of class it has taken me more than 40 minutes to find parking

and i hate being that one person that shows up to class and everyone

wisps around to see who it is.. yadiyada

so i prepared to show up two hours early to find for that one spot.

just to find one within 5 minutes

it was 50 degrees out, so i grabbed a coffee and stoked out a dry slab of concrete.

im surprised i still have a bootie. (why cant they have indoor seating areas)

oh ya cause we're in so. cali and 50 weather only happens once every so often

like today is supposed to be back in the 70's. im not complaining. :)

from my favorite online shop

i love the floral

jeans and flats? jeans and boots? so much to do here!

i love me a scarf. always.

another always.

i have gloves with fingers, but without finger covers would make gripping the stirring wheel so much easier.
haha

sista to my black pair.



cant forget something for my babay



on my list to do:

learn to make PHO best thing in the world

remember, even if its rainy, snowy, windy, clear

always let the sunshine in!

happy monday!

well today is the day i've been anticipating.

as always i can barely sleep the night before.

hence being awake an hour before i needed to be.

the beginning of a new school semester.

this semester i'm taking 2 extra units than usual.

this is my schedule now:

monday, 6:00 wake up, 8:30-6:30 work, 7:00-10:10 History 3 units = 6 hrs of homework a week

tuesday, same routine, math 2 units= 4 hrs hmwrk

wednesday, same routine western art history 3 units= 6 hrs of hmwrk

+ 40 hrs a week working = a whole lot! im gonna be a busy lady

thurday and friday homework time

and possibly a social life on the weekend.

i know it could be worse, i just always get a little nervous before.

plus im petitioning all of my classes.

wish me luck, in the rain also!

hope that crack ive been meaning to get fixed on my windshield since september holds up!

lemon law

no this was not my great epiphany from my last post,

this is almost as epic

watch and learn

isnt he so cute?

thats right folks.

i am initiating the lemon law in the world of i.

yes, i know it is kind of mean.

but i dont want to waste any time.

its not like im ready to date anyways, since this,

BUT

 if im out dancing and creeper who'd been following me around all night comes up

ill maaay him 5 minutes

what wrong with that? 

as the dictionary says:

e·piph·a·ny

noun, plural -nies.

1.

a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.

2.

a literary work or section of a work presenting, usually symbolically, such a moment of revelation and insight.

 

when i searched epiphany

 

i had one last night. everything came at me. BAM. like i could finally see the light of the situation.

i was able to let go, and move on.

my eyes are wide open to what could be.

that what i was in was a not a healthy mind set, thinking all that drama was supposed to be that way.

and i know now.

thanks to my epiphany.

give me an amen!

happy happy friday!

what on your to do list this weekend?

i get to figure out this printer my brother brought home from his job site, that has no disk.

and put the donated lap top my work gave me together!

im so blessed.

plus some coffee, boot poppin', and family time!

 

who needs a man when...

you can put this puppy together

with no power tools!?

thats right, i did!

all i need is a little wire detailing and im done.

sadly the desk i was eye balling for a while was more than i was wanting to pay

so i opted for this simple, yet cute desk. for only $20 whoopers at ikea.

that place is kinda awesome, i swear dont go without a map, you'll be lost for hours.

excuse my old radio down there...

im still stuck in the times before i-pods.

i once had one for a week and i broke it...

 the radio has always been loyal.

or, im just technologically challenged..hmm?

iiiits saturday, and you know what that means?

girls night out!!

no boys, no drama, just fun, and dancing the night away!

sounds like its gonna be lengan...wait for it...almost there... DARY!

here's a blast from the past

witness my dancing.. (im terrible really, but who cares?)

i am the one on the left, lauren and jamie on the right.

church camp senior retreat mammoth.

2006.

the oompa loompa's know how to get down.

now im off, to get ready to boogy!!!

peace.

i really needed this reminder.

so worth watching.

hope this reminds you to be loving towards everyone..

not just the people who may be pretty on the outside,

 dispite their past, or present,

because thats what Jesus would do.

definately has me re-thinking the way i'm feeling towards my sistuation at this particular moment.

love and heal?

this is a little deep

-er than most of my posts. if you hadn't noticed a few of my posts recently have been kind of depressing.

i figured id get it off my chest and move on...or try to.

when i was a sophomore in high school i met this boy "my sunshine" i called him.

we didnt actually become official until after high school.

we were so in love. 6 months into our relationship.

he got down on one knee with a pearly ring in big bear

i said yes, cried called my friends and familia.

i bought a dress..and it sat in my parents closet for years.

2 years later we moved in with each other.

i was in heaven.

not knowing he was not.

i was not the betty crocker lady he thought wifey should be.

ya i liked cooking, but he needed to do some stuff too. equalize people.

along with some other things.

well he wasn't used to that, arguments started.

3 months after living with each other, he left.

i was heart broken, although i covered it with anger.

i was so angry. i had never been that pissed off in my entire life.

i never thought id say such hurtful things to anyone in my life, but i did.

a month later he got a new girlfriend, to realize that she wasn't me, and he wanted me back.

of course he came crawling saying he'd do anything to make me happy to make our lives work together.

im such a push over. but it was the words i had wanted to hear so bad. even though i was so hurt.

things started ok. we talked alot. something our relationship lacked at times.

i thought things were different. i eventually let most of my guards down.

we did have our moments when the conversations weren't as easy as he thought,

i think he thought i would forget that he left me, after he said he never would. i didn't.

im not good with the whole forgive and forget thing..

so last week, i found a face book under another name he used

(in high school he found out he had another name long story)

and the only friends he had was his ex gf whom he still talked to and even hid from me at one time.

i was ticked. i confronted him.

apparently random people make fb's for people for no reason? cause he denied even knowing about it.

1 night of not hearing from him all..and the next he invited me to meet him for Chinese food.

at my favorite Chinese food place, mind you.

he was done. he gave up, like he said he never would.

so here i am, hurt, again.

i still had it somewhere in me despite everything to fight for him. with everything i had.

im hurt, defeated, exhausted, upset that i let him in again

and scared to get out in the world alone.

for the past 7 years i had him to lean on.

i am focusing my efforts now of ways to better myself,

to be a better friend, sibling, and daughter.

I know God wont give you anything you cant handle.

everything happens for reason.

i love all of my girls and family for being there for me during these times.

i dont know how i would get through all this without them.

also to my fellow bloggers,

reading your blogs everyday reminds me, that there are people out there

who have gone through difficult things and can get through them.

thank you all so much!



i love a new place..

thats locally owned

and is just plain deliciousness all over

oreo truffle and outta this world!

the place was so cute too.. we drove by and had to stop.

they had pink everything, just the way to steal a girls heart.

"whoever said orange was the new pink was terribly disturbed"

-ell woods, legally blond

pink chairs, blenders, little tiles on the floor ahhh im in love.

not with all the calories i indulged but soo worth it.

Wildflour Cakes

check it. yo.

this is just to prove that i really am knitting. :)

update:

i did not build a desk this weekend, or go to ikea.

i have my eye ball set on a wooden desk

(waaaay more sturdy than anything from ikea)

at a local thrift store.

just gotta borrow the truck from my momma to go claim it mine!

super excited. this will make homework soo much easier.

this weekend was sort of a duzzy

i wasnt in such a peppy mood to do too much

so i spent some time studying and learning

how to knit.

in the past i had used the circle peg helper thingy like:

it works fine but the scarves i make come out rounded therefore not very wide.

so it looks like i have a knitted hose around my neck..not very fashionable in my mind.

so after many tutorial searching i found one that was so easy and helpful.

at first i was so confused, but eventually with patience i got it down.

i am about 7 rows deep now..

only probably 300 more to go.

yippy!



focusing:

this weekends goal:

get together with old friends.

check

build myself a desk..if that doesn't succeed

take a trip to ikea.

in process



one day i will...

lady antebellum is amazing.

not to mention this song.. is speaking right to my heart.

right now its hard to see..but i know it will come.

at least we know we tried.

im a believer that everything happens for a reason.

God must have better plans for us.

PS: I'm sorry my recent posts have been a little debby downer, but that's life and that's how i'm feelin' 



hello thursday!

so I've come to the realization that this cold i have had

for almost a month

may also be allergies.

i really hope not, i do not want to take something for allergies on a continuous basis

urrrggg..

i wish i could do this all day



taken by my fancy Gx2 4g phone. I'm getting savy peeps!



happy thursday!

how do you know..

which road to take?

..

..

..

Ive been contemplating this simple yet so complicated question for the past 4 months.

I'm standing at the fork.

the wind is pushing me side to side

the clock is ticking and i need to make a decision

its even haunting my dreams.

ugh. so many decisions.

so many if buts and thens and goodbyes.

or

then there's a whole other list of possibilities.

we shall see Gunther, we shall see.

cafinated please

i came across the simple most amazing place in down town Fullerton

if you haven't been to down town Fullerton before

it is the bar crawl in northern orange county.

they also have little artsy stores like my fav. buffalo exchange and photography studios

that I'd love to live in, and are never open when I'm oo'ing and ahh'ing at their display

to venture inside

i thought i was over the whole down town Fullerton scene until i came across this little place

 The Night Owl

maybe substituting those fuzzy navels, long isles, and shark bites with coffee will keep me up to date with my new years resolution numero three.

tah tah to 2011

2o11 you were not very friendly to me..

i am glad you are over and looking for a fresh new start to 2o12.

this will be a good year...i can feel it in my bones. 

my new years resolutions:

1. stop biting my nails.

2. stop that awful social habit i do on occasion

3. eat healthier

4. be true to my heart and stop worrying about what others may think

5. be more adventurous

lets hope these are kept..at least past February. :)

a few pictures from last nights festivities..
our plans were to go out on the town but things changed when someone lost their wallet
we improvised.

bon fire

drinking games

and besties

So here's to 2012...please be sweet to me!

thank you.