making a decision

last week i went on a new job interview.

I don't hate my job now, but I had a itchling for change,(a Gemini curse)

 and wanted sick/vacation hours.

 

the tiny office im at now  (900 sq ft) with pink patient charts for 4000 patients slewed around can be a little overwhelming.

so I went.

 

it was in a tall sky scraper on the 12th floor near south coast plaza. the windows had such a view.

this office had its own floor, there wasn't a paper out of spot.

when you walked in you can see into the glass conference room with a big white marble table.

it was beautiful.

I met with the women there for the interview. which I didn't think went well but then...

 

Monday, I got the call. they were offering me the job.

only $2.00 less than I am making now. and would mean driving 18 miles more than I do now...

it would also mean needing a whole new wardrobe and wearing heels..

I turned it down.

 

Im not sure what I was looking for, and why I didn't consider the distance thing before hand.

I just need to kick that Gemini butt and focus and enjoy the things I do, and do have.  

 

I had a quick meeting with my office manager now, and she said they are going to start "personal" days. (after 5 years, they better!) and informed me on some changes that are coming to the office in the next year. no one else knows of them except the doctor, the office manager and myself, I feel a little honored that I am the 3rd to know.

we shall see whats up.

 

 

thank jesus its Friday. I have a busy one this weekend.

roach truck rally, celebrating a friends birthday, bbq in big bear tomorrow, church, movies, softball game, plus mothers day! I need a weekend from the weekend.

 

 



turtle man.

today i got to thinking about

my favorite turtle man patient.

he was the sweetest old man. ever since i started working there five years ago

whenever he came into the office he had the biggest smile on his face

which is unusual since most people hate the doctors office. and he knew my name.

he loved us enough to invite the whole office to his ninetieth birthday party at his families house.

he was kind, active as in falling off the latter at 89 years old in trying to clean his gutters

and wise very "with it""

  i never got to ask him anything in particular before he passed away a few months ago.

i wish i had.

his obituary said that he was a world war II vet.

to live through that. what a life, what a story!

i wish i had the thought then to sit with him, with a pot of coffee and just listen.

but i was too busy with paperwork, school and everything to just...

 

 

 

when i should, we all should...

 

.... a little more.



now and then

this is what hard work and determination will get you..

40 pounds lighter.

at the time i didn't realize i was this unhealthy until i saw the picture on the right.

{this is what too many margaritas and tacos will do to a gal}

 

 

 

{march 2013 vs. june 2011}

 

 

i did this mainly by eating healthier, more veggies, lean meats, lots of water, cutting out most sweets, i still had ice cream here and there keeping up with my daily vitamins and vitamin b12 (due to a deficiency) and being more active, either hitting the gym, to cleaning the house, i would even just park farther from the store to get a little more walking in.

this was over a span of about two years.

and i feel great!

 

my goal for this year: tone and work on wearing heels.

 

not trying to brag, but i am so proud of myself and cant believe Ive come this far!

hope this can be of some inspiration for any of you struggling with the ever so often resolution to loose a few lbs.

if i can do it, you can do it!



well hello there may

i cant believe its may already.

it feels like just yesterday i was singing christmas carols.

i am so excited to finally get in with all the cool kids with instagram.

i heard/saw everyone talk about it, and i felt soo left out.

thank you jesus for allowing androids to pick it up.

whoo hoo.

im going to attempt to do this religiously this month. 7 days late.

#7: something that inspires you

looks like His light is shining through the clouds down on us all despite all the clouds or whatever else may be in the way to keep shining on.



Just DANCE!

had to steal this from this lady

i remember singing this song in the Jr high choir. thinking to myself, i don't understand this.

but now it makes all the sense in the world.

Happy Thursday! i hope you dance a little or alot today!

i have 17 more days until...

stagecoach!

the best weekend on my life

(yes i am giving it that expectation)

and the cowboy stalking begins.

yeehaw folks!

i am going to be such a busy girl between then, with some:

line dancing

snow sledding

tests

dad's bday

brother's bday

flamingo hunting

research paper writing

baby shower

swap meet

flag painting

and working over time in there

pheeww...i think i may have asthma after all that.

is this a busy time of year for you too? tell me about it!



hands

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands

-jewel

 

this has to be one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard. it speaks right to the heart and basis that everyone should follow. in the end only kindness matters. i try to live my life with an open heart, thinking what would He do in this situation or how can i still love this person when they've done so much wrong.. but wasn't He the one to love the tax collectors and prostitutes who everyone else shunned? we all mess up at times, but i know that He is watching over all of us and will never give us too much that we cant handle even when we feel like theres a mountain on our heart, he knows that we will come out of it stronger than ever.

I'm putting all trust in the Lord that He has a plan for me, and all of us, and if we just believe we will be fulfilled and happy.

 

have a wonderful Friday my lovelies!

happy monday!

well today is the day i've been anticipating.

as always i can barely sleep the night before.

hence being awake an hour before i needed to be.

the beginning of a new school semester.

this semester i'm taking 2 extra units than usual.

this is my schedule now:

monday, 6:00 wake up, 8:30-6:30 work, 7:00-10:10 History 3 units = 6 hrs of homework a week

tuesday, same routine, math 2 units= 4 hrs hmwrk

wednesday, same routine western art history 3 units= 6 hrs of hmwrk

+ 40 hrs a week working = a whole lot! im gonna be a busy lady

thurday and friday homework time

and possibly a social life on the weekend.

i know it could be worse, i just always get a little nervous before.

plus im petitioning all of my classes.

wish me luck, in the rain also!

hope that crack ive been meaning to get fixed on my windshield since september holds up!

lemon law

no this was not my great epiphany from my last post,

this is almost as epic

watch and learn

isnt he so cute?

thats right folks.

i am initiating the lemon law in the world of i.

yes, i know it is kind of mean.

but i dont want to waste any time.

its not like im ready to date anyways, since this,

BUT

 if im out dancing and creeper who'd been following me around all night comes up

ill maaay him 5 minutes

what wrong with that? 

i really needed this reminder.

so worth watching.

hope this reminds you to be loving towards everyone..

not just the people who may be pretty on the outside,

 dispite their past, or present,

because thats what Jesus would do.

definately has me re-thinking the way i'm feeling towards my sistuation at this particular moment.

love and heal?

focusing:

this weekends goal:

get together with old friends.

check

build myself a desk..if that doesn't succeed

take a trip to ikea.

in process